Too good to last.

It happened like something out of a movie. It was perfect and in my stomach I knew it was too good to be true - too good to last. I prayed I was wrong but now that everything has fallen apart I'm afraid I was right. I loved you, I still do. This love is like nothing I have ever known, nothing I knew existed. I thought I was in love until I met you and you changed everything. I love the night we danced in your empty living room. I love how you like to cuddle. I love your passion for everything you do. I love the late night wordless phone calls as we'd fall asleep. I love how happy I was because of you, how I want to be a better person, how you inspired me. I love you. But now your life is a mess, and it's out of my hands. I want to be here for you like I had been before but you won't let me in this time. I can see it in your eyes like an open book that you still feel the same so why can't you admit it anymore. I know you're afraid of loving me as much as you do; you have told me. The truth is the thought of not loving you scares me more. I can actually feel my heart clench at the thought of you being a stranger. I've been told that I deserve better. But I never took that advice to heart because I am an extremely passionate person. Whatever I want, no matter how painful, difficult, or tiring it is, I will put my utmost heart and efforts into attaining it. But lately, I've been drained of the energy to hold on. It hurts to know that he'll soon forget me. But maybe this is the way it's supposed to end. Maybe I had to learn that wanting someone you have irrevocable feelings for is self-harming and unnecessary. At least with him out of the picture completely, I can pretend I don't miss him much. Maybe one day we'll be together again, they say if you love something to let it go and if it comes back its yours forever. But for now, the only person who has my attention and care, is me and I'm the only one I really need.